What's on the mind of a loserette?

Want Some Fries with Those Five Chili Cheeseburgers?

Wow. Another week gone by. Is this a good thing you ask? I'm not entirely sure. I haven't decided yet. I'm sick of high school but I don't want to move on with my life just yet. I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. Well I have some idea... I know that I will love and be loved and work for the embetterment of mankind. I may not be the next Eleanor Roosevelt or even someone's favorite high school teacher but I WILL be someone and I WILL make a positive difference in everyones' life that I can. That's my life goal. At least I think. Why else were we put here on earth? To hate each other? I hope not. I may not have all the answers, but at least I'm making an attempt to look for them.

Ok enough already with the philosophical crap. So today was pretty good (except for the surprise essay in English). It was kind of like Monday and Friday at the same time. Wednesday which was more like Friday was super awesome. Tuesday too. Tuesday I had jazz band which rocked except that this other guy came to play guitar. And at first I was scared because he was kind of bigheaded about his guitar skills. But it turns out that he sucks (no offense if you happen to read this - I love you anyways). So this guy can't even read music, let alone use a tuner. Poor guy. Why do guys always act so arrogant? Heaven only knows. After that ordeal I gave Dream and Kajannae a ride home. Dream wanted to go to Checkers so I gave in. She ordered 5 chili cheeseburgers. Five. Did you hear that? FIVE! I thought she was kidding. But she really really wasn't. She ate two or three of them in the car. Ahhh Dreamboat, you're killing me!

Wednesday after school I tutored for Mu Alpha Theta. Christine was supposed to come, but she didn't show. Silly llama. It didn't go too bad. I didn't realize that I do so much math unconciously. After that I went to go see about getting my stamps and I ended up having a fairly entertaining conversation with Mrs. Curtis. I know a lot of you out there have some issues with her and maybe her class is a smidge boring, but she really is a remarkably comical person. Although she did accuse me of having the Eyore Complex... So what if I lack self-confidence? I like myself the way I am. I especially like the fact that I have a 101.07% average in her class. That is definitely by far a record for me. I wish all my progress reports looked as pretty as my stat one does. I have a whole list of 100s and then 3 99s and 2 104s. Sometimes I wonder how the hell that happened. But then here I go again doubting my abilities (thanks a lot Curtis). In other news, church and ensemble rehearsal went well. Then I went to visit my grandparents and then I watched the O.C. It is so nice to see that show again. I really missed it.

Thursday was no school. What did I do? I don't recall. Slept til 2 probably. Oh yeah, we went to BlockBuster. Yay for Shrek 2 and Stepford Wives! And finally we have a synopsis of today. Nothing too exciting to write about. Just your average run of the mill Friday. It's 2am now and I've been working dilligently on a new mix. Jeff let me borrow GarageBand and I must say - it is teh roxors mucho!!

Just for the heck of it and partially because I'm currently dying of boredom, I searched for myself on the net. Google didn't turn up much but with other search engines I had some sucess. I actually found a newspaper article with my name in it that I had no clue existed. This one's for all you math lovers: http://www.stpetetimes.com/News/051301/Northoftampa/Boy__that_s_calculati.shtml .

I've just recently become addicted to a new vast wealty source of knowledge: www.howthingswork.com . That site is awesome and I know I will spend a good part of my life reading it, but really what's more important: reading about how things work or actually living life away from a computer and making your own things? I will have to look into that answer. Google here I come.

I've been listening to this song while posting. Third Eye Blind used to be one of my favorite bands. They've faded away. How's It going to be?

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing I wonder what are we fighting for?
When I say out loud I want to get out of this
I wonder Is there anything I'm going to miss?
I wonder How it's going to be when you don't know me?
How's it going to be when you're sure I'm not there?
How's it going to be when there is no one to talk to?
Between you and me cause I don't care
How's it going to be?
Where we used to laugh there's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch, a silence I can't ignore
Like the hammocks by the doorway we spent time in
Swings empty, don't see lightning like last fall when it was always about to hit me
I wonder how's it going to be when it goes down?
Hows it going to be when your not around?
Hows it going to be when you found out there was nothing between you and me?
Cause I don't care
How's it going to be when you don't know me any more?
And how's it going to be?
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
Wanna taste the soul of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion
Oblivion
How's it going to be when you don't know me any more?
How's it going to be?
How's it going to be?

posted by Marcy @ 1:55 AM